EVERYTHING IS

 

Yesterday, I felt sadness.

And when I talked with other people and they asked me: “How do you feel today?” and my answer was “I´m living”, they asked again: “Are you ok?” Actually, they asked me about two times if I was ok, and the two times I said: “I´m living”.

When I have to report my mood and I don´t use the words “good” or “bad”, I realize some kind of bewilderment appears on people´s face.

I used to say “I´M GOOD” every time as a polite greeting, and when they used to ask me again, because sometimes my face gave me away, I repeated “Everything is fine”. I never could say I am feeling sad or bad. Maybe, with some friend, I could say “I am feeling sad” but most the time I started crying, without saying something. Perhaps, without my knowing it, I sensed that being sad was not bad.

That idea of being sad is bad or being happy is good.

Everything is.

My sadness was about how hard is when you can see very clear the path you should walk to that amazing place of calm and peace, and how hard is when you try to show it to others and they can´t see it. I was sad about the way everyone is walking and How I must respect their decisions, and only see and love them, accompany them. Sometimes, it is hard because in one hand, I want to help them to take the right decisions, but to other hands, it is journey of knowledge and I must not intervene in their times.

Accept is a mastery of love.

And it is an incredible lesson to learn. To be sad was learning, And if you had to used the polarize classification, I could say “good” because I was learning to live. However, in my mind, being “good” is other thing, so I couldn´t say it, but I couldn´t say bad…. I´m in a process … I know I have to be patient with myself And for that reason, sometimes polarized my feelings makes me face the fact that is something bigger that two words. It is a kind of sense I can´t describe.

When I started to see the things as they are I could link with the idea of freedom. And that little idea helps me to see beyong of the facts. And that capacity is help me to accept that everyone has its own time to reach the knowledge and my true is mine, and It cannot be accepted for others. And that´s is fine. I see clearly that my lower mind wants to control every step, but thanks to this capacity of see everything depolarized, I could climb other step.